February 2012
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what's going on? this.
Well.. I went and got signed up for my test. March 6 and 7th at 2:30pm at the DSC campus in DeLand. That’s finally out of the way, but now I have to cram on the math portion just to refresh my memory on how it all works, as I have no idea really what to expect. I gotta get 410 points collectively between Math I and II, so I think I should be alright, but I’m still nervous.
I got...
Well, last night it hit me really hard, that I need to do a lot more to make a future for Chris and I a possibility. I need to think less, do more, try harder and accomplish as much as I can because all of the time I spend in a less than productive way is time that I’m adding to the tally, days that we will go without seeing each other and that’s hard on both of us. I missed him so...
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Have to lay down, close my eyes and hope I fall asleep because I’m gonna be working my ass off tomorrow. I have a lot of cleaning and studying to do.
I even have to bring stuff to Chris’s house with me just to make sure I can fit in some studying over the weekend. Otherwise I will never be ready to take my tests in time.
Idk. I just have to start getting my life in order and it looks...
It’s no surprise that I’m not feeling any better
I’ve just been keeping tabs on the weather
And I’ve observed the last few days
The clouds turning darker shades of gray
And well, maybe things will never lighten up
It’s easy to fall behind sometimes
When life is one long uphill climb
Whether it’s your coat tails or your shoulders
It’s bound to...
Today
Study for my tests this month.
Do my nails because they look RUBBISH.
Go grocery shopping.
Work out.
But first and foremost, I am going to order pizza because I am starving.
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I found things I wrote while cleaning out my...
I saw them staring down at me
I’m sure they’ll outlast even the morning light
I saw them sparkling in your eyes
They were fiddling as you burned alive
And I realize how far gone you really are
And I just really wish you’d come home
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things are getting better /knock on wood
I have all of my priorities in order. All my ducks are in a row. Or they’re getting there, anyway. (: I am prepping to take two big tests in the next couple weeks, I need to make a dentist appointment because the cold weather has decided to remind me that I have cavities. Chris has steady work and we are adapting to that schedule. At least he doesn’t work Friday-Sunday, so we will have...
January 2012
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I tucked my head down into Chris’s chest and tried hard not to cry when he told me I was going to have to go home AGAIN, when we were led to believe that I would be able to stay Friday-Sunday to spend time with Chris (who I haven’t been able to spend any real time with in two weeks— I come over, we’re both exhausted, we go to sleep almost immediately and when we wake up...
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I am feeling very motivated tonight, went over some medical math work earlier. I’m thinking I might go ahead and take the Pharmacy Tech prep program as soon as I can (probably end of March or sometime in April). I’m excited about it because they have the course online with Valencia and it’s significantly more affordable than the other programs I was considering. The fact that...
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I love you so much.
Thought that last night before my boyfriend went to work was the last time I was going to see him until Friday. Now I’m going to spend today with him, too. Although most of today will be spent in bed watching movies or TV show and primarily sleeping, that is enough for me. (:
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welcome to 2012
Well, 2012 looks promising. I am with someone that I love more than I have ever loved anyone. I’m about to take a series of tests, which when I pass will change my life so much for the better. My boyfriend found a job in Orlando and is well on his way to getting his license. My family life isn’t a complete mess for once and all in all I feel content, peaceful and usually self-assured.
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Well, my head is feeling better so after I take a shower I’m gonna go ahead and start working on my language course, permit handbook and get a bit of math classwork done. I’m feeling much better than earlier now that I’ve come down off the stress.
Study, study, study. That’s what I’ve been doing and what I’ll continue to do until I finally have some of my to-do...
It was a really, really long night. I’m about to make myself some breakfast and take a look at my to-do list, although I might have a nap first.. Depends on how tired I feel and if my headache feels any better after I have some food and pills for my headache.
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Must.. conceal.. feelings. must.. not.. be.. irrational.
no. better yet..
Must go outside. lock self in car. and fucking scream
and scream
and scream.
sigh..
And my mom says I’m normal.
Well, I have a lot of stuff to keep me busy lately. I am taking a German course, studying for my permit and after next month I will be able to start putting in applications because not having a job is driving me absolutely crazy. Granted, I’ll be going crazy waiting for weeks/months to hear anything back from anyone because jobs are so hard to find around here, but I fully expect that.
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December 2011
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Umm! I combed my dreads out. Now it wasn’t because I didn’t like them after all or because other people didn’t like them or anything like that.
I combed them out because after I made one, I kept adding and adding to them until I had about a dozen of them and I figured if I had that many, I might as well finish dreading everything except my bangs. But just as I had finished back...
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today's agenda: hunting vampires and running...
So, I woke up this morning feeling a little like I did the first day I got sick. I can’t say for sure whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing, but I’m gonna go ahead and assume it’s a good thing because I don’t feel too terrible or anything.
I’m herb’d up and ready to face the day, as long as the day doesn’t consist of slaying dragons, hunting...
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Well, I just wrapped up a few of my dreads, because they were starting to come apart, which is fine for some, but personally it was really irritating me because every time I went to run my fingers through my loose hair, my fingers would catch in the middle of a dread that was coming undone. So, to spare myself the trouble and to keep the dreads from locking up with loose hair, I took the hemp...
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. HA. HA. HAAAA. Oh my Gods.. Oh man! Karen told Ember that she left the house and doesn’t know if she even wants to go back. Please, please let her be gone for good. I know perhaps Jesse doesn’t see it right now, but it will be in everyone’s best interest if that bitch just gets out of everyone’s lives, permanently.
yeeea. (:
Fishsticks, Vanilla Coke and watching dreadlock tag videos on YouTube. If I don’t do pilates later I will be sorry, sorry, sorry. But this is my reward for all my hard work lately. (:
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When I'm at a disadvantage, I don't give up, I...
Drank another cup of Sleepytime tea because honestly I feel like I’m almost back to normal. Just feel like I’m dealing with allergies at this point. I hope it doesn’t knock me out, I just wanted my sinuses to continue feeling awesome.
I’m gonna make some yummy food of some kind and start getting some chores done. When I’m done with whatever chore I choose to get out...
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My baby boy let me know that he’s laying down to go to sleep, so I think I’m going to have a cup of Sleepytime tea once I’m done with this Chamomile tea and get ready to lay down myself. We always sleep better if we sleep at the same times. I’m pretty sure it’s because we connect somewhere in there and we can be together there when we are apart. (:
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recovering slowly but surely.
In terms of health, I’m doing much better. I honestly think all this herbal tea I’ve been drinking is making the difference. Usually I’d be sick like this for a week before I felt anywhere near normal. I haven’t been taking any medicine except the occasional ibuprofen and my sore throat is hardly even noticeable. I don’t feel congested in my chest or in my sinuses, so...
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drama drama drama, nonstop drama.
So, what’s new since my last nap. I hadn’t talked to Chris through out most of the day, so I was starting to think maybe he had just passed out and would talk to me later at night or whenever he woke up. But something was also telling me that a bombshell was being dropped over at his house.
Well, turns out it was a bit of both. He was updating his Windows and that took 4 hours, his...
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Hoping for a fast recovery..
I didn’t get around to playing with my dreads. ): Got caught up in an important phone call for an hour and a half, took that trip to Hellmart to pick up some Vanilla Coke, some provisions for while I’m sick (tissues, cough drops, tea) and a couple other random things.
I also found Shutter Island by Dennis Lehane for just under $4, so I was excited about that, since I loved the movie.
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Damn you, responsibilities I can not shirk.
I should sit down, listen to music and back comb my dreads but I simply don’t have the time! I mean, I do.. but if I take the time to do my hair, I’ll have to justify it to myself why I’m spending the time to do that when I haven’t cleaned the bathroom! I hate having a sense of responsibility. haha.
I guess what I’ll do is clean the bathroom right now so I can sit...
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